Declaration of Dependence

Today an interruption in my plan began a chain of thoughts about the independence of my character/personality. My reflection on this topic began as I exited work and sat in wait for my scheduled chauffeur. "Just five more minutes" came and went until 45 mins had lapsed. I used this time constructively to finalize my bi-weekly budget and plan out the drills for swim team tomorrow while intermittently I rationalized my ride's "unpreventable" delay. These ranged from "the clock in the kitchen is slow, she must have misplaced her keys as well, then there was a phone call the very moment she was finally going out the door, when she reached the car it wouldn't start, that must be it." Hmmm, but she hasn't called to office yet. No one has come out with a message for me. Ultimately, I reached my frustration point and surrendered to the realization that I had en forgotten. =(

Not gonna lie I had a pity party for a good five minutes then got over myself and asked, "Now what do I do?" Two options can to mind- A) return to the pool office, explain I have been waiting for 45 mins for my ride and ask to call home. B) Find my own way home, i.e. hitchhike, bus or walk.
The first option seemed to make my parents look irresponsible and put myself too close to the 'little lost puppy' category. Being a secure, independent and active woman who lost her bus timetable and isn't stupid enough to hitch hike, I chose to make use of the legs God had provided and triumphantly began to trek home.

The hour long venture in the heat of the day cause a re-evaluation of my decision making paradigm...Was I too proud? Headstrong? and Independent? Why would I choose to walk rather than the obvious solution of simply calling and reminding my mom? Partly, it was a gorgeous day and I love the outdoors. Secondly, I had the time-no appointments or plans till that evening. And Third, I would rather take an hour out of my way than wait any longer for a ride. I rely on others for almost everything, what better way to declare my independence?

This is just one step in weening myself out of my parents care. As I mature I will depend on them less and less, but through out life there is one person who I'll never outgrow my need of. My dependence on Him can't change (I will never need him less and I can't need Him more) but my realization of its depth continues to grow each day.
I realize that "...in reality I’m nothing on my own, It’s by God’s grace alone that
I can make this confession. All that I am and all I’m hoping to be is all and only what He’s given to me. So I say This is my declaration of Dependence,This is my declaration of my need, This is my declaration of dependence on the one who gave His life to me."

To my creator, sustainor, Savior, Lord, provider, comfort, protector, author and finisher of my Faith and lover of my soul-this is my declaration of dependence on You.